In the hopes of reaching the moon,
men fail to see the flowers that blossom at their feet.

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Time to buckle down

Spring break makes it hard to stay on plan! I so need the structure of a routine. Now that I've realized this, it's time for me to re-commit and get my mind in the right place.

I need to do this.

I will do this.

I have a goal that I want to get to.

Not to mention, I want to be a good role model for my girls!

Friday, March 30, 2012

Today's Meal Plan

Breakfast:
Coffee & Creamer (2)
Special K Granola Bar (2)

Lunch:
Chicken Taco Chili (from skinnytaste.com) (4)

Dinner:
14 points left for dinner and a pm snack

Snacks:
Popcorn Chips (2)
Watermelon (0)
Grapes (0)
Carrots (0)
Hummus (2)

Pretzel~just the knot~(3)
I googled the nutritional info and a pretzel is now 9 points! They are my favorite things in the whole world, so I decided just to have a piece of it and count it. It was so yummy and I enjoyed every second of it :)

I resisted pizza--so proud of this little victory. That was easier to resist than I thought it would be though!

Step Away from the Scale!

I decided that it's time once again to join Weight Watchers. The inspiration that I get from the other members is so inspiring. It feels good to know that other people have been where I am. I love to get tips and advice and to hear what others have to say about their weight loss journey.

When I have joined WW in the past, I have had various results, some positive others negative. I am hoping that something will "click" this time and that I will find the motivation needed to stay on track, and get back on track when I need to.

I have decided to hide the scale. I am obsessive about weighing myself first thing in the morning, every day. I have noticed that if I am doing well, I will give myself little "rewards" throughout the day that aren't healthy. I feel entitled to an extra snack or something for "being so good." I am hoping that without measuring my progress on the scale (not every day anyway, just once a week), that maybe I will be motivated by my clothes feeling bigger, or hopefully I will feel more energetic.

I am so obsessive about the scale that I had to ask Jim to hide it for me. The last time I did this, I searched and searched and found where he hid it. Can anyone else possibly be this obsessive about the scale??? The only other person I can think might be is my mom. In the past, if I see good results throughout the week, I have eased up a bit on counting my points. I think that not knowing where I am will help keep me accountable. Wednesday is my weigh-in day and my WW meeting. I sure hope Jim did a decent job of hiding that scale! We shall see if this will do the trick.


Ideas are always welcome!

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Frustration!!!

I have been going to the gym for three weeks now and my scale has not budged! I will keep going to the gym but I know that my eating will be out of control if I don't notice some changes soon! I think I may look online for some info on that.

I have heard some people say to cut out diet soda while trying to lose weight. I do drink 1-2 a day and I guess it's worth a try. This will definitely be hard for me though. I think I am a diet soda addict! Ugggghhhhh...

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Week 3 Small Victories

My "eating right" is finally catching on...(small victory) I figured that it kind of feels like a waste to be spending 4 mornings a week at the gym to only eat what I want the rest of the day. I started using "My Fitness Pal" and log everything I eat.

There have been weeks when I have gotten off track and then as soon as I start logging, it's eye opening as to how poorly I have been eating and there's an urgency to get back on track...which feels like the story of my life!

My fitness pal is awesome because there's a scanner for a barcode that will allow you to "scan" the item and the nutritional information pops up. You can then modify how many servings you had. Unfortunately, the camera on my phone is no longer picking up the information and I need to manually enter it. But one bonus is that my phone is always handy so it's never a chore. My favorite part is at the end of the day, you click "finish logging for today" and it tells you how much you will weigh if you ate like that everyday. I think that's so cool and it keeps me motivated!


Gym Update (another small victory): I am (once again) sick. I skipped the gym on Monday morning when my workout buddy texted me that she had a migraine and wouldn't make it that morning. I was so relieved so I went back to sleep. Tuesday, I woke up with a terrible headache and feeling exhausted...so I went back to sleep. I regretted that decision later when I went to the gym right after work. I realized that as tired as I was, it would have been so much better if I had just gotten it over with! So, that brings us to today--Wednesday. I woke up feeling exhausted again. But I told myself I just had to do it (another small victory). I got up, got dressed, brushed my teeth, and then realized that my workout buddy texted me again this morning that she is probably going to start up again next week. I was SOOOO tempted to go back to bed. But I didn't! I was up and I just wanted to get it over with! The first ten minutes on that treadmill were pure torture, but I persevered!!! And now I am so glad that my workout for the day is done!

Once again, it was rainy when I left the gym this morning. That is seriously my favorite new feeling in the world. Pure refreshment.

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Slow and Steady Wins the Race!

Today's title sounds so cliche, but it's also so true. But I'll get to that in a minute.

First, I just need to say that it really sucks going to the gym in the dark! BUT, with that said, I am feeling so good about going so early in the morning. It's so dark out, that it feels like it should be 12 am not 2 hours away from the sun rising! I may not like getting up so early, and I may be tempted to snooze a little longer, but honestly, getting up is half the battle. And when I am finished at the gym, I get a burst of energy that carries me through!

To top it off, it was raining this morning. The thought of walking out into the rain was enough to make me want to turn around and go back to bed. I wasn't going to let that stop me though! And when I left, it was raining even harder...and let me tell you...it felt so GOOD! To walk in the rain and not worry about getting my hair wet or messed up. Talk about refreshing!

Yesterday, I did the circuit training and today I did the treadmill. I was a little irritated that I forgot my phone today so I couldn't listen to music, but the time still went faster than I expected. It was nice to think about what I needed to do for the day. It's rejuventaing in a way, because it's time just for me. There's not too many moments in the day that I can say that!

I am starting to actually feel a little stronger, too. I can feel that my muscles are sore...and it's a good feeling. Throughout the day, it reminds me of what I've accomplished.

I also made some progress on the treadmill this week. In the past couple of weeks that I've been going to the gym, I've been walking at a pretty slow pace. If I try to bump it up a bit, my shins hurt, or I get out of breath. So I was averaging about a 3.3-3.4 speed. Today, I made it up to 3.6 and that was just a "faster walk"...it wasn't quite a jog but it felt so good to be up to that speed. I realize that for most people, 3.6 isn't really a challenge, but it was for me. This also helped to shorten the time that it took me to make it to a mile. When I first started going to the gym, I think it took me a little more that 20 minutes to walk the mile! Today I made it in 17 minutes and 42 seconds! Still, not the best time in the world, but it was better for me! I am happy with the strides that I have been making and I hope it continues.

Saturday, March 10, 2012

Challenges

Well this post has been hard to write. I've been putting it off for days now. I know week two will not show good results on the scale this week, but instead of focusing on that I'm going to think about why that will be. First of all, I was sick for a whole week so that threw me off. I went for about 5 days without having any appetite at all. Secondly, pms is not helping me to get back on track. I hope to start week 3 rejuvenated and recommitted. There will be challenges along the way, but they are just detours.

What I did do right this week was to work out on the days that I started feeling better. I woke up at four-fifty on Wednesday and Thursday to go do the treadmill. I absolutely despise working out, but it's a step I need to take. I also like to hit the snooze button as much as possible. I resisted that urge, and just got up the first time the alarm went off. It felt so good--not only the working out part, but the sense of accomplishment that came with knowing that I "did" it. I'm thinking to myself how it will feel to say those words to myself at the 5-month point.

Here's to a week back on track!